Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Oh, and Shane...

…if you are reading this, Please tell me where you get a thin Christmas Tree. We simply have NO ROOM in our living room for one! HELP!

And the Holidays Begin...

Thanksgiving was wonderful. Lindi and I spent the morning cooking, then moved the food over to my Mom’s house, where I did the remaining cooking there. The menu consisted of turkey and ham (my dad), beautiful relish trays, cranberry sauces, deviled eggs and pumpkin pies (my sister), stuffing, fresh mashed potatoes and gravy, real whipped sweet potatoes with brown sugar & coconut, traditional yams with pineapple & marshmallow, corn, green bean casserole, Utah Funeral Potatoes, and rolls (Lindi and I). Our “fine” china consisted of heavy duty Chinet and we had a ball. Everyone was able to come, which is always wonderful, and I was pretty tired out by the time dessert came round. But at the very least, my mom didn’t need to do a thing, and the kitchen was clean when we left, which is all she really wanted anyway. Home by 7:30 and in bed to rest for the evening, up again in the morning to work and on it went.

By Sunday, however, I had gotten a helleva cold and was in bed for three days. I am at work right now, but still not feeling 100%. Just plugging along. DayQuil is my friend.

I received an interesting lesson in forgiveness today, from an unlikely source. Someone from the past who had harmed my self esteem greatly apologized for the hurt they caused. It was not solicited, but I was grateful for it.

As I was talking with Lorene, I told her how I felt a relief – like a weight had been lifted from my shoulders. And then I realized I should have felt nothing at all – her apology, while generous, should not have affected me in the least. I should have let go of that pain two years ago and had not.

At some point in time, I should have forgiven myself for not being “good enough” or being a “better friend” or any of the numerous things that were stored up in that experience. I had not found the root of the experience until it came full circle again – apologies from someone else should not mean more than forgiveness of self.

I am grateful for the lesson.

Friday, November 25, 2005

One Day....

This will be Lorene and I.

Cat Lady.

(PS: The number, not the conditions mind you...)

Domo Arigato, Mr. Miyagi

Actor Noriyuki "Pat" Morita dies at age 73

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Reason 1,776,439 I shouldn't have given Toni access to my Blog

She makes comments about aliens, probes and my butt. I just don't think I want to go there.

Yes, I suck and not such in a good way. I haven't been all that busy, I just haven't felt like updating my blog. I know that's horrible, but sometimes I don't really feel my life is all that interesting anyway. But, because Lorene and Toni just might post another strange comment regarding probing, I shall do my best.

My 90 days here at eBay is up on the 15th of this month, so I will know at that point if I will be converted to a full-time eBay employee with all the bells and whistles. Lorene tells me not to worry, but I can't help it, dang it! I would hate to think I left the U for naught. I know the Universe has plans for me and I guess I will see how they pan out.

Halloween and All Souls Day was wonderful! I decorated all day Halloween, as I had it off, and really accepted the energy that was around me all day long. We only had a few trick or treaters, but I made dinner and caramel apples for my family and just enjoyed the energy of the evening. I also lit my pumpkins on November 1st for All Souls Day, and hey were beautiful.

My friend Corinne took me to Happy Sumo on the 1st as well, after I spend an hour and a half finishing up a root canal. It was my first experience with sushi, real sushi, and I have to say that I really enjoyed it! Especially the Vegas Roll. num num num... (no lesbian tuna comments, Toni...) I think Corinne and I are going to make it a standing date with the two of us - she is an incredible person and I am so lucky she and I got to meet each other. Just thisclose to 21, gay and has already lived a helleva life. And a Cancer. What more do you need in a friend?

They have closed off part of the floor I work on to make room for a new gym and I can't tell you how excited I am for that. I can work out right after - or before - work without ever leaving the building.

Well, back to the grind, keeping the world safe to eBay, one account at a time.

And no more posts about my butt, Toni.

Monday, November 07, 2005


I think someone has bid for Connie on EBAY and now she is missing. She was shipped via UPS, so if anyone knows anything, please call your local authorities.