Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Weekend Update

I know it's not the weekend, or Saturday Night Live, but here I am anyway. Take it or leave it!
I ended up making a trial run of Dawn's Groom's Cake and it was beautiful. I learned how to dip Tuxedo Strawberries, which was really fun, and the white fondant cake with chocolate ganache turned out beautiful. Now my challenges are to flavor fondant because I can't stand plain. Yuk. Our family and neighbors love it when I have a new project because they get to eat the trial cakes and goodies. I will have one more dry run before the wedding just to make sure I have everything perfect for her perfect day!

I have been collecting all the things I need for her Bridal Shower invites and as they come in the mail I get more and more excited for the partay! :)

I will be at home tomorrow - and there is so much work to do before I leave. I am having a scope to see if I really do have a hiatal hernia and if I need surgery. Yay. I am looking forward to the Versed, though. Ha ha!

If I post tomorrow, it may be drug induced, and I won't remember it - which might be fun in and of itself.


Thursday, February 22, 2007

B o r i n g Thursday

I am settling into my position here and more and more is being laid on my plate, which is fantastic. By the end of March, I will be fully trained to take over the client, and more than qualified to be hired full-time permanent. I am still a little stressed, but I really enjoy the work, it's something I know well and am very proficient at, and the people here are fantastic. It's a quite place, relaxed, not as high strung as eBay, thank God.

I'm kinda nervous about the scope on Wednesday. Eating has become a real challenge now. We went out for Fish n Chips to celebrate Ash Wednesday and I was having a hard time swallowing the potatoes. I'm thisclose to an all liquid diet at this point. Everytime I hiccup, I feel like someone is driving through me with a sharp knife. Ugh.

The monthly menu planning has been pretty successful! I am really pleased. I am working on March now and have already filled it with some meals, but I am going to have Lindi and Sarah put in their selections too - make it a real family effort. After the initial shopping trip of $200, my weekly shopping has drastically dipped. Plus, it's nice to be able to look at a calendar and know what is being cooked - and I am not the only one cooking, which is lovely.

Sarah is going to her Prom at the end of March and is on the lookout for a beautiful Prom dress. I am so excited for her, I was hoping she would go. I didn't want her to miss out. I can't believe she is going to be 18 in less than a month. Wow.

Oh, and you HAVE to make these brownies. They are AMAZING:

The Ultimate Brownie

The Ultimate Brownie is my absolute favorite brownie. It is tall like a cakey-brownie, but is dense like a fudgy-brownie. I'm sure it will be one of your favorite brownie recipes too. Shout out to Anna from Cookie Madness!


  • 8- 1 ounce squares of unsweetened chocolate
  • 1 cup butter
  • 5 eggs
  • 3 cups sugar
  • 1 tablespoon vanilla
  • 1-1/2 cups flour
  • 1 teaspoon salt
  • 2-1/2 cups chopped pecans or walnuts, toasted


Preheat oven to 375 degrees F. Grease a 9 x 13 pan.

Melt chocolate and butter in a saucepan over low heat; set aside. In a mixer, beat eggs, sugar and vanilla at high speed for 10 minutes**. Blend in chocolate mixture, flour and salt until just mixed.

Stir in the nuts. Pour into prepared pan.

Bake for 35-40 minutes. (Don't overbake.) Cool and frost if desired, but that is not necessary.

** It's not required, but this is when it's very nice to own a stand mixer.

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

Love this song...

The sun can't remember how to shine
And the colors all have faded into shades of gray
There's no life in this hollow heart of mine
Ever since you went away

Close your eyes and feel me hold you
Can you lead me through this ordinary world
Let the sky cry restless rain
To wash away the miles between us
'Cause without you, it's just an ordinary world

If time could find a way to turn around
I would walk along the stars 'til I was back at your door
Every word, every word was spoken but without a sound
And I found out what my heart is for

Close your eyes and feel me hold you
Can you lead me through this ordinary world
Let the sky cry restless rain
To wash away the miles between us
'Cause without you, it's just an ordinary world

Hold your breath, here I come
Down the road unwinding
Back, to your arms
'Til we melt
Underneath the blinding sun
Can't remember how to shine
And the life in this hollow heart of mine

Close your eyes and feel me hold you
Can you lead me through, through this ordinary world
Let the sky cry restless rain
To wash away the miles between us
'Til love can come redeem us
'Cause without you, it's just an ordinary world

Dr's Appointment

Argh. I love my doctor. I really do. I think she is brilliant and talented and love her to pieces. I just don't like it when she says "This is something we really need to check out..."

She thinks I have a hernia or a stricture in my esophagus so I get to have an upper GI scope on March 1st. Can't say I am looking forward to it, but I am looking forward to the versed - oh, happy drug induced sleep.

The only thing that makes my stomach and esophagus feel good is coffee... the same thing that irritates it. Geez.

Well, that's what I get for having an amazing doctor.

Monday, February 19, 2007

Productive Weekend

I loved this weekend! I was able to spend some serious quality time with the family and that is always so nice.

I am hosting a Bridal Shower for my bestest friend Dawn and I am so excited about it! Lindi and I went shopping and bought all the things so I can make 20 invitations (Jolee's Boutique purple daisies, butterflies, stamps, ink, paper, vellum, cards, embellishments, eyelets...) and got a hella deal on heart napkins and plates since it was after Valentines Day. SWEET! I planned the menu and the games (not the lame ones) and even contacted AvenueSweets about a very special guest gift - customized for the happy couple. Dawn even asked me to make the Grooms cake, a beautiful white fondant cake with chocolate ganache and tuxedo strawberries. I am thrilled to be a part of her big day.

When we returned home from shopping, Lindi and I took on a huge project - our Kitchen. Since I don't have a craft room, and limited storage space for all my baking supplies, we had installed a large silver restaurant rack on the wall to help store everything. We had purchased plastic drawers to store all my craft supplies... but as my collection grows, the space runs out. Lindi and I gutted the kitchen - removing duplicates, broken things, even glasses we never use and put all my craft project supplies on the kitchen table to put away later.

That took us into the evening, and since Lindi had to open the restaurant on Sunday, we watched our weekend movie, The Departed (WOW!) and I sent her to bed at 9pm. I then took to the kitchen and organized EVERYTHING - throwing away things I will never use, labelling all the drawers and getting everything protected. It looks amazing. When I looked up, it was nearly 3:30 am!

Lindi normally wakes up at 3:45 to open the restaurant, so I made her breakfast, came upstairs and gently woke her up with a Diet Pepsi and Breakfast sandwich and fell into bed - sleeping almost until she came home from work.

Sunday was the day I reserved for Sarah's Valentine's Day dinner - since I have TWO Valentines I have to have 2 dinners! I made her favorite : Chicken Parmesan, Cesar Salad, garlic bread sticks and Orange Dream Pie. We had a beautiful candlelight dinner and some laughs, mostly at Lindi's expense. They finished dinner and took dessert (some oatmeal cookies I made) to her mother's house while I cleaned the kitchen (three days worth of dishes! ick!), and then fell into bed...

I am excited to be planning a Poker Night and Dinner with D and T... I laugh so much when I am around them. It's good to spend time with good friends.

Have a great week!

Friday, February 16, 2007

Horoscope for Today

Let go of your need for perfection today, for things won't necessarily follow your detailed plan. Instead, you might try to do everything differently now, for this could allow you to make an important theoretical breakthrough. Treat even the most boring job as an opportunity to discover something new. Remember, no one is keeping score, so it really doesn't matter if your productivity slips a bit.

A Week of Weirdness and Clarity

OK. I still have a heavy heart concerning my friend. Well, actually, I have a heavy heart concerning more than one, so I think I am reaching a point in my life where the drama has become too much. I haven't seen this much un-adult like behavior since High School, and frankly, I would rather not go back there.

So, my anthem for today is to define what a friend is and what they aren't in my life and to really put energy out there to those who have given energy back to me.

1. When I apologize sincerely, there is not need to drag on and on and on about the subject or to treat me rudely. A real friend forgives and moves on, accepting the apology gracefully.

2. Not everything I do in this world is directed at someone. I do things for a reason. Recently I had an opportunity to accept a well-earned apology from an old acquaintance, which I did. My speaking to this person was for me. Me alone. It was not done viciously or disrespectfully or as a slap in the face to anyone. It was about ME. If you can't accept that, then maybe you need to take a look as to why you feel so strongly - maybe you are the one who has unresolved issues.

3. When I extend invitation after invitation to get together, which go repeatedly ignored or declined, I take it personally. When a get-together occurs and I am told about it, then not invited, I take it personally. I don't want to hear about how it was a mix up, especially when it's happened more than once. It is obvious you don't want to spend any time with me. On the other hand, I will be taking invitations from others who genuinely want to be around me and see the value of my friendship, of which there are many. My dance card will be full.

4. A friend is there in a moment's notice, not when it suits them. They are there to share both joys and sorrows and extend themselves to show they care. From now on, I will only reciprocate to those who show that energy to me. Otherwise, it's a waste of my time.

5. I am so blessed to have some real friends in my life, those who have shown so much to me and who I am happy to be around. They make me laugh and show me the real person, not the facade. I will only be around people who uplift my spirit, not drag it down. If someone drags you down, they aren't your friend.

6. Some things, and people, are better let go.

When it is all said and done, if I were to die tomorrow, I will not leave things unsaid. Those who I love know I love them. Those I have hurt know I am sorry. I have a huge heart and lots of room for lots of people. I consider myself to be a pretty good person and a good friend. And in the end, that's all that matters.

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Happy Valentine's Day!

I have discovered an amazing local place that serves candies to die for. I originally heard about them on 101.9 The End and decided to take a look, and ended up getting Lindi's V-Day present there. All I had to do was email a picture and they wrapped it and sent it. It was beautiful!

You should visit and buy some for yourself.

The Nougat is amazing, soft and flavorful. I had my order, no lie, in 24 hours. I got Lindi the Leather Photo Box with hand-made caramels, and they are worth every single penny. Mmmmm.

Today's Horoscope

It's tough to relax completely today, for you are being pushed and pulled by the circumstances unfolding before your eyes. You cannot control the external events, but it's crucial to take responsibility for your own reactions to what's happening. Even if you can't change the world, you can change your attitude.

How true that is!

Thursday, February 08, 2007

Very Cool

My Kua Energy

September 10th, 1972

Energy Number: 5

"The Compassionate Mother"

In Feng Shui, you are considered a "West" person.

Living for you is nurturing others with your talents and gifts. You are a great networker and collaborator, and when you work with others you are at your best. You are so used to giving to others that in order for you to have great energy, you need to let others take care of you. Having young and creative friends around you will stimulate you, and your creative genius blossoms by being in these relationships. Meditation and spirituality are part of your daily upgrowing as without a higher source your life is mediocre.

Your Directions:

  • Success: Southwest

  • Health: Northwest

  • Relationship: West

  • Wisdom: Northeast

Interesting Thursday

An email can change your entire day, you know? I've had 3 of them in the last week and I've had about as much as I can take.

The first email was from an acquaintance telling me that a friendship I thought I had established was, in fact, entirely fictional. Fictional? I wrote emails and had chats with this person online... or so I thought. This person exists, but never wrote to me. In fact, the acquaintance did that. It was some new information about an old situation that I had resolved months ago, so I just kinda let it roll off my shoulders, but still... really unnerving.

The second email was from an old boyfriend. It was sad and sweet all at the same time and made me smile quite a bit. I was flattered as he reminisced about our old days and how the connection between us would always be there, even if we haven't seen each other for years and years. Walking down memory lane really made me examine how far I've come in my self respect and all of the lessons I've learned from all those I've loved.

I even took some time to give thanks for the lessons in each of my relationships ~
From M, I learned to be patient and what it feels like to be proud of your partner
From B, I learned how to stand up for myself
From N, I learned never to compromise my own beliefs
From S, I learned how to let someone go and that it's ok to be friends
From M, I learned that it's ok to be wild and free and uncontained
From E, I learned that you can't will things into being
From C, I learned that being a woman is beautiful and powerful
From G, I learned true tenderness and strength
and Lord knows I am still learning lessons from Lindi, only one of which is how to be a good mom and another is how to be a kid at heart.

I have been so blessed to have all these people in my life to take with me on my journey - simply because they are all still with me, everyday, helping me to make the decisions I make, shaping me to be who I am. I used to regret things I've done, but I've transitioned into acceptance, I think, only because I am not the person now I was back then.

And the final email was one that cemented in my mind just how far I've come. Actions I took in regard to another relationship hurt someone I care the world for. Of course, I had no idea, and it's all a huge misunderstanding. Rather than crying in the corner and begging for forgiveness, which I probably would have done as little as 6 months ago, I calmly explained the situation, that there was nothing to be upset about, apologized, and in my heart, gave permission for the situation to be whatever it's going to be. If this friend chooses to remain in my life, it is her choice. It is out of my control.

I know who I am. I know my value. I don't hurt people on purpose for any reason. But sometimes, in the course of life, you will do something that hurts someone in a domino-effect kind of way. You won't know you've done it until the damage is done, even if it is a misunderstanding. So, the best I can do is apologize and leave it in her corner. If she knows my heart like I think she does, then she will choose to remain in my circle. If not, then I wish her the best on her journey. My energy remains within and with those who I love and who reciprocate and can see the radiance of my heart.

Thursday, February 01, 2007


If you yelled for 8 years, 7 months and 6 days you would have produced enough sound energy to heat one cup of coffee. (Hardly seems worth it.)

If you farted consistently for 6 years and 9 months, enough gas is produced to create the energy of an atomic bomb. (Now that's more like it!)

The human heart creates enough pressure when it pumps out to the body to squirt blood 30 feet. (Ew. Just ew.)

A pig's orgasm lasts 30 minutes. (In my next life, I want to be a pig.)

A cockroach will live nine days without its head before it starves to death. (Creepy.) (I'm still not over the pig.)

Banging your head against a wall uses 150 calories a hour (Don't try this at home, maybe at work)

The male praying mantis cannot copulate while its head is attached to its body. The female initiates sex by ripping the male's head off. ("Honey, I'm home. What the...?!")

The flea can jump 350 times its body length. It's like a human jumping the length of a football field. (30 minutes..lucky pig! Can you imagine?)

The catfish has over 27,000 taste buds. (What could be so tasty on the bottom of a pond?)

Some lions mate over 50 times a day. (I still want to be a pig in my next life...quality over quantity)

Butterflies taste with their feet. (Something I always wanted to know.)

The strongest muscle in the body is the tongue. (Hmmmmmm......)

Right-handed people live, on average, nine years longer than left-handed people. (If you're ambidextrous, do you split the difference?)

Elephants are the only animals that cannot jump. (Okay, so that would be a good thing)

A cat's urine glows under a black light. (I wonder who was paid to figure that out?)

An ostrich's eye is bigger than its brain. ( I know some people like that.)

Starfish have no brains (I know some people like that too.)

Polar bears are left-handed. (If they switch, they'll live a lot longer)

Humans and dolphins are the only species that have sex for pleasure. (What about that pig??)